shut your trap.

don't lecture me bitch. tell yourself what you tell me.

manipulator.

i take my hat off you. its amazing how you justify your claims to it. does that mean you're the MASTER now? then way can't you seem to take care of things that matter? heirachy is dead? haha. please. it's just your warp idea of equality that doesnt apply to anybody but me. so you know what, screw you and your ideals. you don't deserve any good words from me since i dont get any from you. this is what i call fairness.

maybe you should go check yourself out in the mirror and start having a clear idea of what it truly means to be fair and equal before you become such an avid believer of it. yes?

time for some updates.

yes yes. i haven't been blogging for soooo long. been busy.

so what shall i say?

i'm tired of everything. i just wanna go home and be with you. so yes. i think that's all.

i miss you.

end of the road

i'm leaving tmr! by this time tmr, i'll be on the way to melbourne. away from everyone who mean the world to me. especially you. i hate to think of life where you're not there with me. but we'll get through it.

through it all.

the countdown begins. i'm gonna leave soon. sometimes its so stupid to wish that things will be different. the 'what ifs' come to mind. you just gotta tell yourself that what's done is done. there's no way to alter what lies ahead of you since you're set on this path. what you need to do now is to treasure each moment you have with the people who mean the most to you. that's what's most important. the rest can just go to hell!

i'm so sick of shopping everyday. haha. but jean's coming back! which means more shopping!! ahaha. PLUS! there's Sydney with min! omg! i'm so excited! (:

the only way to not be depressed is to keep yourself busy. either with work or with retail therapy. that's the true way to not think about things that will keep you down.

things to do.

1. apply for carpool permit

2. find apartment

thats all for now.

part of me wants to go back to australia and part of me wants to stay. leaving and coming back has become so routined that i'm kinda immune to the heartaches that come along with leaving. but i just can't seem to let go of my best friend and you. you guys are the ones that keep holding me back. and keep the tears coming whenever i have to say goodbye. it will never be something i'd get used to.

to you.

i'm tired. tired of everything that's going on. its so complicated. i thought we'd be past that. now it's just ridiculously stupid. can we stop this hypocrisy now?